Yo there thespians!
I apologise an awful lot for not having written a word since the day before my Guildhall audition! (I did not get recalled, if you want to know, that's okay though because that was my practice audition so I was not too bothered how far I got in that process system.) I have been extremely busy with... well everything.
I just wanted to write this because, as the last day of the year 2013 I thought that it would be good for myself to see what I have learnt over the previous 12 months in terms of life. Also because, as you might of seen on the news yesterday, a guy called Adam Pickup was found dead in Manchester yesterday. He was 17 (like me) and he also went to my collage in Stockport. And although me and my friends are going down to collage today to lay some flowers for him; it has made me have a serious think about life in general. I could be dead any minute so do I actually want to spend the precious moments that I have pursuing a goal that could never happen? My conclusion was, yes. Because it makes me happy when I am on the stage performing. I feel like I am doing something productive with my life, that I can share the stories of others is my idealistic view of doing something good with the world.
That said, I really do need to start working much more harder in many more aspects of my collage and acting work.
So what have I learnt this year? Well I'll tell you:
1.People do not mature at the same pace. - I learnt this when a good friend of mine managed to get pregnant three times over the course of the year. Now like me you would of thought that getting pg'ed once would of made you realise that you need to wear protection. But then I learnt that she needed to do these things in order that when she gets older she can look back and think why she did it. I.e. you gotta give space to people to grow in their own time.
2. I am not very good at exams. - But that does not mean I won't try to improve my skill at them.
3. I am a very strong willed person.
4. Kick Ass 2, The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug and Anchorman 2 were brilliant sequels. Nuff said.
5. Festivals are dirty but fun. Nuff said also.
6. I can overcome my fears. - When preparing for Les Miserables I had no sang in front of an audience of people on my own since I was 10, so you can see why I was happy when I got through.
7. I can do well when put under pressure.
Of course I have learnt other things but I honestly cannot think of anything else at the moment.
I am looking forward to the new year, plus slightly dreading it (well the first half of it.) Mainly because within the next six months I would of found out if I will be going to Drama School or the National Youth Theatre Summer Course. Plus I'll be having my A level exams in which I want to be considered for MMU then I need like a B and three C's. Therefore I cannot get distracted!
Speaking of Drama School, NEWS UPDATE!!!!!!!!!:
I have TWO AUDITIONS NEXT WEEK!!!!!
The first on monday for MMU at 1:00 (thank fuck as I get a lie in.)
The second on Tuesday for RCS at 11:30 (not so good as have to get a train at 6:15 :/ .)
Both school's are in my top three within my choices so I am both utterly excited and terrified that I might muck it up. As with Guildhall I am using the Helena moaning speech for my classical, my Port speech for the modern and The Serpent Speech for the alternative.
All I know very well so I shouldn't muck up on my words (I can say the Shakespeare one backwards. Fact.)
I just don't want to let myself down, I want it so badly that I guess if nothing happens then I would get on a proper downer.
However I am quite glad that they are next week as I know that with the death of Adam, collage will feel so depressing and I would rather have a pleasant time while studying rather than be depressed. (I already get depressed with how much I don't understand in my maths lessons, and knowing that I've got an exam in it too.)
ALSO! Have applied to another Drama School! Drama Centre in fact, I don't need to learn anything extra with it but just go along and pay the audition fee. Plus it does look amazing.
Right well, I guess I'll be posting on Monday and Tuesday on how the audition's went.
Keep your fingers crossed for me!
(Oh and Happy New Year!)
Cheerio 2013,
Terri ;D
